Hey mom,

How’s life today?  It was pretty crazy for me last night!  I was literally getting ready to go to bed. H. had JUST taken a shower and was settling in to eat and watch TV before he went to bed, which usually entails him passing out on the recliner, when his phone rang. I tell ya what, after him trucking all summer, I seriously hate that sound! I swear he has to constantly remind me that he is one of the senior guys so they have to ask him first before going down the line of drivers!

Any who, so I hear a voice asking him what he’s doing and I came out with ‘NO!’ and walked back into the kitchen so I could listen out of sight even though hubs knew I was there!

       “G. hit a WHAT?!”

       …

       “Where is he?”

       …

       “Ok. Let me change and I’ll be there, which truck?”

At that point hubs walked into the kitchen and stated:

       “G. hit a moose and it’s bad!  They want me to get pictures and pick him up.  There aren’t many I would go for at this time of night and being in PJ’s already, but he’s one of them. It’ll take about 6 hours there and back.  I’ll let ya know if anything changes.”

As he ran upstairs to get back into work clothes I filled his coffee cup and cracked another beer!  Honestly I was a bit pissed.  He always gives so much to his work and I felt left out! Silly I know but still, there is something to be said about snuggling deep into the covers next to your hubs!  Before I knew it he flew down the stairs!  I don’t know why I was surprised cuz he’s always been fast as heck but I was! ­It was probably the intensity and focus he had!  It sorta radiated from him so there was no way to say this was flippant.  He was deadly serious and that sorta calmed me down as he doesn’t act like that if it’s not important!  As he flew out the door I took the dog out and settled in to feel sorry for myself!  I honestly should know better!  Abba does not often allow me to wallow in that feeling and last night was no exception! 

As I kinda stood there thinking a thought dropped into my brain:

       ‘Kind of Yahweh to make sure you have time to write to mom tomorrow.’

I absolutely lost it cuz the humor in the situation struck me.

       ‘RIGHT!’

The years since you left this world began to play through my mind. Some memories brought tears, some laughter, but they were all a little less painful this time. In the end all I could think about was how meticulously YHVH had orchestrated everything to get me here! I cried because I would be totally lost w/o Him specially with what’s going on in this world today!

You see about 7 or 8 months after you left this crazy thing called C0V1D hit.  It was deliberate of course and they pounded it to death!  I mean it was everywhere and all of a sudden face diapers were the new fashion statement! Can you imagine being ENCOURAGED to wear a mask into a bank!?  Then they started the ‘it’s the new normal’!  I seriously wanted to projectile vomit it was so ludicrous! Then they started saying masking was mandated!  Oh Lawdy did the world jump in with both feet! I mean not even a n95 mask, just a regular surgeons paper mask, like that was supposed to do any good!  Remember mom?  I use an n95 when I do the piggies hay so I don’t breath it in and make myself cough and you couldn’t find them ANYWHERE! Honestly I was really grateful you’d gone home at that point cuz I knew you’d pop a gasket!

Then they started locking down the hospitals. It was like a death camp for most!  Once you went in you never came out! The worst part is that the ‘high ones’ and their evil minions were looking for patients!  All for the all mighty dollar just like with the schools and kids labeled ADHD and such!  The more you could produce the more money they gave you!  I mean people were dying of all kinds of things and it was listed as the beer flu (originally it was called C0r0n@ so beer flu).  There was one guy who got into an accident but wasn’t hurt; the EMT’s stuck him with something that put him out cold.  He unexpectedly woke up in the hospital with a vent in!  Needless to say they were shocked he woke up and pulled the vent himself! He demanded his clothes and got the heck out of there!  When he told his story they CENSORED IT!  We did have a miracle though!  The flu was completely cured for 2 years! {serious eye roll here}

It got so out of hand that even though there were ‘mask exemptions’ people would absolutely flip out if you weren’t wearing one, which I only did when I went to the pot shop!  Other than that everyone could kiss my big white pillowed parts! I mean D. and I were running errands one day and we were going into Walgreens.  I hear ‘mom’ and look up to him tapping on his mask!  I cracked up and stated ‘NO!” and walked into that store like a boss!  I did the same thing to A. and her guy the next week as well!  It got to the point that if a place insisted on masking people stopped going to that place! I have never seen so many people afraid of living, or should I say afraid of dying. I think it was General Flynn that stated ‘…you can act like a private and the world will treat you that way or you can act like a general…’  Since I grew up with you talking about putting on my ‘tough guy’ coat/mantle it seriously resonated very deeply with me and I walked it out to my very best abilities! I still do!

I don’t know how I made it through that first year, but I DO know it was only with YHVH’s care and guidance.  The whole thing has been a total PSYOP designed to utterly crush any resistance and control every human on the face of the earth! Alas; as you and gr’ma used to talk about; little S.R. is not easily controlled!  I think it took me less than 2 months to be utterly sick of the crap and ready for it to end! I mean it couldn’t get any worse could it?

Well yes in fact it could and it DID get worse and worse!

I wanted to run.

I wanted to cry.

I wanted to scream why oh why?

But I didn’t run.

I didn’t cry,

And OH I KNEW why!